Here’s me putting my foot in my mouth less than a week after having chastised people for “holding back” in the twitosphere. In applying for a grant last weekend, I was asked to supply my Twitter handle. I did, didn’t think much of it, progressed to tweet away carelessly, remembered the application, read through my tweet history, and decided upon the need to take action a la My Fair Lady.
I deleted a tweet something along the lines of “systems mapping is making me feel autistic” and I made some tweets over the next few days mentioning a play that I saw, a Wikipedia page that I read, a book that I had bought, an article I wrote, etc. Who am I? I feel so ridiculous to have condemned people for basically just wanting to be hired. At the same – why do jobs and grants and all these other random things that have nothing to do with our social lives keep asking for our Twitter handles?!
Anyway, the shame I felt during my Twitter makeover enhanced a feeling/worry I’ve been having lately – am I trying to assimilate with some Twitter counterculture? Talking about things I’m interested in academically or things I’ve done in the city isn’t “not me,” but I feel like I’ve built some kind of taboo around it. The Twitter etiquette going on in my head needs some serious deconstruction! – help me! Am I just ascribing to the rule set of a different public sphere? Do I even *get* the rules?
It’s so awkward and sometimes really annoying to witness a person trying to “find their voice” on social media. On the one hand, I hate all this hashtag-@mention-excess, aspiring-yuppie, community-engagement garbage. On the other hand, anything to do with absurdism, irony, or spelling mistakes so easily comes off as totally contrived. So I subtweet-insult these kinds of tweeters, but simultaneously haven’t found my voice yet either.
Well, I guess this post was mostly an apology/confession. And I’m going to try to stop being bossy and talking like I know everything … this is the internet after all.